Today was our first “real” meeting for yoga teacher training. I spent the day both excited and a little apprehensive. I’m not sure what it is that makes me feel scared about this process. I was less so during this session because my focus was more on what we were doing and less into the future. We talked tonight about what our personal vritti will be during the training, and I immediately thought of my tendency to be competitive.
The funny thing about that is that it isn’t so much competition with others, exactly, though it does certainly involve comparison. It’s more about me. I don’t need to be the “best” in the room or to “win.” But, I do tend to be upset when I feel like I’m below average at something or not up to my own expectations. Ah! Ego! It has served me well in many parts of my life and that makes it hard to let it go.
But, I think that is part of the process.