Blogging Ambivalence

Ambivalence - a work by Christine Marie Larsen

I like to blog. I like to read blogs.  But, I must admit that right now I’m feeling a little bit of ambivalence about blogging.  It all comes back to the question of why, I guess.  I don’t blog just for myself, to be honest.  If I just wanted to journal, I would do that and not have to worry about what I was writing or who might read it.  I blog because I think I have something to add to the larger conversation about yoga and veganism.  I blog because I want to be a part of that larger conversation.

But, recently, I have been torn.  It seems to me that the most popular blogs (individual posts, or blogs overall) in the vegan world are those associated with printed cookbooks or books about veganism. I’m fine with that, and completely understand it.  It just makes it seem redundant for me to post yet another recipe for vegan chocolate peanut butter cupcakes or spicy corncakes.  In the yoga domain, as far as I can tell, controversy is the key.  Posts that are about sex, have some beautiful semi-nude yogis, involve admission of some sort of “horrible” unyogic flaw, or that mock the superiority of yoga culture (all the while embracing the superiority of the mocking of the superiority?) seem to be what sells.  Here too, I understand why such stories get a lot of hits and if that’s what people want to read, that’s what they should read.  However, I’m not going down that road.  I’m a regular person seeking a greater unity.  I have regular flaws.  I don’t need to sex them up for anyone, not even myself.  I also view my personal family or relationship stuff as belonging to my family and my relationships, and won’t be blogging about it in detail. I don’t view that as “dishonest,” but as respectful that my relationship stories are not just about me. I’m not in relationships alone and I can’t just tell my story without bringing others in.  Additionally, I have a day job to watch out for.  And, trust me, you don’t wanna see me nekkid.

So, yeah, I guess I am feeling like I have lost a little bit of my focus for blogging – a little bit of my reason behind it. I need to find it again.  I need to figure out who my audience really is – little though it may be – and what that audience wants and needs from TheVeganAsana. And then, I need to figure out how to provide it.

Which means, dear reader, that if you are here reading today, it would be very useful for me to hear from you why you read this blog, what you would like to see more of, and how it does/should function for you.

Yours in blogging service (and ambivalence),

L

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15 Responses to Blogging Ambivalence

  1. Meg says:

    Right on Lorin. I’m in the same boat. Lots of yoga blogs seem to talk about the same four or five topics. That’s why I’m blogging about my weekly farm share. It keeps me blogging, has me interacting with some non-yogis, and lets me write about what I’m interested in that week – which is my farm share and menu planning. I feel the pressure to write about yoga, but the desire isn’t always there. Can’t force it.

    • I think it’s a fine topic to include on a yoga blog, Meg. People who do yoga tend to be healthy minded, so it is probably right up the alley of your readers. Plus, it can be something to make your blog different from other yoga blogs.

    • theveganasana says:

      I love the farm share discussion 🙂 I’m just about to start mine for 2011 (next Monday is the first one) and I’m so thrilled.

  2. It’s probably not helpful for me to post, because quite frankly – I’m not interested in yoga. LOL I do enjoy the recipes and other things about you personally (including ones about yoga that are more personal in nature). You know, but that’s what happens when you love someone that writes a blog about a topic that wouldn’t normally make you subscribe to a blog — you love the blog because you love them. 🙂

    I just started reading an ebook that might be helpful to you — https://www.e-junkie.com/ecom/gb.php?cl=139993&c=ib&aff=14085. It’s called Simple Blogging. I’m only just a bit into it (started it while I was doing the elliptical yesterday). But, I am really enjoying it so far. What I’ve read so far talks a lot about purpose.

    If you take anything from this – just know that this means that you’re really getting to be a blogger. Every blogger I know that is serious about it starts having all of these thoughts. And, most bloggers seem to have times every so often where they say, “I just want to walk away from it.” I’m in a private group with about 20 other bloggers, and when anyone ever posts those kinds of feelings, everyone else always jumps in. LOL

    (((HUGS))) Your blog is unique because it is from your perspective. Nobody else could be writing it just like you are.

    • theveganasana says:

      Not that I’m all PMS/infusion-y today, but this just made me tear up. LOL Love you, Angie. Thanks for the encouragement that this is just a normal blogging phase.

  3. Memmu says:

    You are amazing person; you inspire me to do my best and also, to take care of my body. Your posts are always very realxing and inspiring.
    I am going to India next week & I’ll be there ten months, focusing to yoga. This blog helps me to understand what yoga is all about. 🙂

  4. keishua says:

    Do I ever understand what you are saying?! I love blogs and blogging but finding an authentic focus has been hard for me. I love a lot of things. I am a dabbler and I don’t want to talk about my relationships with people..so where does that leave me? These days, I am really trying to be whole in my blogging. I am not one topic or persona but a whole person and I want that to come across in my blogging and in my life.

  5. Olivia says:

    OMG! I am going through the same thing. I feel that my blog isn’t worth the trouble to write sometimes because I don’t show my face yet I don’t have a pretty young face like all these gorgeous young bloggers. Of course, they get more hits and of course the companies see my stats and know I am just a size of pea when it comes to PR their stuff.

    On the other hand, I am not willing to buy products I don’t like and spend money on things I don’t want. I don’t want to kiss anyone’s arse. I just want to stay sane but blogging is another media and I question myself and my blog too.

    But, I do like your blog because it is my little corner of sanity, that space where I can sit and meditate.

    Sorry for blathering on like an idiot, I am just lost at the moment when it comes to blogging.

    • theveganasana says:

      Yep, that’s it. I know we have talked about it before, so I’m hoping this phase just passes along.

  6. Suze says:

    I read this blog because the words flow, the thoughts and musings are realisitic and mature, and it’s obvious that you put alot of time and energy in to everything you do. Most weeks I don’t have time to read everything I would like to on YIOM or online, but when I do, I enjoy reading this blog and would just like to see more of the same!
    Thinking more about the time issue brings me to something else – part of the dilemma for most bloggers is that yes, you want to be part of a conversation – to learn and to share, read some feedback, but there are so many conversations in this world, on and off line, (on or off the mat) that as a blogger to stay sane what you contribute must only be about what is real to you. Don’t let those ambivalent feelings ripple the blog pond 🙂

  7. I view blogging as more of a necessity for myself than a service to others. Some people blog with the intent to captivate audiences and share a message; I blog because I need to write to function (otherwise I feel blocked up!), and it’s easier to write when there’s potentially someone out there reading. Just gives me a little more motivation.

    There’s also the chance that someone out there is also dealing with a torn hip labrum and just needs reassurance that everything’s going to be OK. I subscribe to a few personal blogs that cover an array of the person’s life–exercises, diet, weekend adventures–but the catch is that they are dealing with the same injury as me or something similar. Sometimes it’s just nice to know there’s someone else out there dealing with the same problem but still manages to function.

    Third, sometimes I blog just to remember things. It’s fun to look back at old entries and think, “My god, why would I ever do/say/think that?!”

    When YIOM Part II debuted I wrote a post about why I loved the concept and what drew me to yoga-related blogs. I’m too lazy to search for it now, but in short, yours and the other YIOM blogs are the “meat” of my Google Reader!

    • theveganasana says:

      Thanks, Jenn. Your response reminds me that “for self” and “for others” isn’t a dichotomy, but a dialectic in the blogging process. It’s always both in some way, even when it’s ostensibly one or the other.

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