Watching the Detectives

Well, actually it’s not like watching detectives at all, but I really like that song and it’s in my head now, so there you have it.   What I really want to talk about is watching my yoga students.  First, let me stop myself long enough to giggle about the phrase “my yoga students.”   *giggle*  Now that I have that out of the way…  There is something really cool about being able to watch students as they move through their practice.  In fact, I would say that there are multiple things that are cool about it, and I’m really grooving on them, as I’m used to being in my own practice and not seeing much that goes on around me, so this is like a new world.

Watching students in class is informative.  I find out so much about how people feel about and respond to different poses that I didn’t know before.  As an example, in yin class, I like dragon pose.  I remember finding it tiring early on, but since then, unless something is whacked out in my body on a certain night, I feel ok in dragon.  I can feel that dull, achy stretch that is yin, but nothing that brings me out of the pose or forces a lot of wiggling.  However, since I’ve started to teach yin, I’ve noticed that many people are not happy campers in dragon.  They fidget, wiggle, and look generally quite miserable.  This, of course, can happen in any yin pose, but it’s been interesting to notice how prevalent it is in this pose that I hadn’t considered particularly challenging.  Similarly, in a vinyasa class, watching students is such a good way to judge the pace of the class and whether it is suiting their needs.  I’m still working on this and I’m far far from being good at it, but I am starting to get the clues.  Are they sweating a little (like they are warmed up and working) or cool as cucumbers?  Do they look bored or like they are having to pay some attention to what they are doing, or like they are working so hard to comprehend the directions that they are completely out of their bodies?  And the breathing.  Watching the breathing is also a wealth of information.  I’ve seen students breathing fast, students breathing in sync, students breathing in total contradiction to the movements of the body, and students who are seemingly not breathing at all.  I feel like I probably remind students a little more often to check in on the breath than I need to right now, but it’s partly a factor of what I see.

Watching students is also so inspiring.  It doesn’t matter whether the students are new to yoga or have been practicing for a long time.  Seeing the effort and energy that they lay down in the practice awes me.  Back in my “go to the gym” days, I would see people who were there, but not really there.  They would walk around the weight room with a towel, chat, give other people advice on what to do, maybe check out their guns in the mirror, but they weren’t really there.  I rarely see that in a yoga class.  From the outsider perspective, it appears as if some people are a little more focused on the workout, some on the meditative aspect, some on the flexibility, etc. but everyone seems to want to be where they are.

Watching students is also, bottom line, beautiful.  It doesn’t matter what they look like or whether they are struggling more or less in the poses.  It doesn’t matter (really) if they are wearing cute yoga clothes.  It doesn’t matter the ages or the sexes.  It doesn’t matter that people make some serious concentration faces sometimes during yoga (this makes me wonder what my face looks like when I practice).  Regardless of all of that specific difference, there is just something so beautiful about watching a room full of people do yoga.

And, I’m just getting started in this teaching thing, so I feel very lucky to be having the opportunity to watch students and help them, in whatever little way I can, through their practice.

Thank you, students.  Namaste,

L

Even Yogis Get Nervous

The last few weeks, I’ve been preparing – like mad – for my final teach in a 200 hour teaching training program.  Despite the usual demands of a very time consuming job and a large family, I’ve  kept up with the work in the program fairly well.  But, I have to say, coming down the home stretch is donkey-kicking my rear.  I am, to be blunt, freaked out and really nervous.  Other people in the program certainly get what I’m experiencing, as we are all together in this place.  However, those friends and acquaintances who aren’t  seem to be a little baffled about why it’s a big deal.

Recently, I’ve heard: “You are a teacher. How hard can it be to teach yoga?”  “You do yoga every day.  It can’t be that hard to just tell other people what to do.”  “Aren’t you yoga people supposed to be really calm all the time?”  hmmm   I’m pretty sure the answers are: hard, yes it can, and supposed-to-be isn’t the same as are.  It’s interesting how we assume that some level of expertise in an area means that all of the characteristics associated with that area will be firmly in one’s grasp all the time.  Doctors should never be sick.  Psychiatrists should never be depressed.  Teachers should have children who get all As.  Yogis should be supernaturally calm and composed every minute.  It’s a lovely idea, but I don’t think it works that way and it’s an important message for both the yoga teacher and yoga students.

Doing yoga can help one achieve a greater state of equanimity and calm.  That’s been one of the major benefits for me in my practice.  And, as a teacher trainee, I also know the philosophical part of this.  I know about aparigraha.  I understand that I should let go of what I’m clinging to (whether that is desire or aversion) and not attach to the fruits of my actions.  Yep, I got it.  But, knowing something and being able to enact it all the time are two different things.

Yoga students and teachers are just people.  They are regular people.  And, when you think about it, the yamas and niyamas wouldn’t be necessary if these traits and habits weren’t pretty natural/normal/usual parts of our human animal-ness.  Yoga teachers and students worry, get mad, have a beer, eat french fries, watch bad TV, read pulp fiction, and so on.  So, if you are a yogi, don’t be too hard on yourself or your peers for being the human blessings that you are.

Namaste,

L

First Time Out and I’ll Call it Good

Image from yinyoga.com - A great resource for yin

Unexpectedly, last week an acquaintance who lives in my area, and who I have practiced yin  yoga with on a number of occasions, asked me if I was interested in subbing her Sunday morning yin class.  My initial impulse was YES!  But, I calmed down a little and checked my schedule, confirmed that all was ok with insurance and certification issues, and then said YES!  Sunday snuck up on me pretty quickly, but with playlist help from my loving spouse, Derek, and class planning help from my  yoga teachers, I was ready to roll.  I wasn’t super nervous, but there were a few butterflies in the tummy Sunday morning.

I arrived at the class location about 25 minutes before it was due to begin and started scoping out the room, setting up music (momentary panic when I couldn’t get the  speakers to work turned out to be an issue with my iPhone case not letting the pin make full contact in the jack -whew!), making the props available to students, setting up my little area, and generally familiarizing myself with where things were in the room.

As students started to enter, I greeted them, suggested props to those who seemed uncertain, and invited anyone who wanted extra time in heart bench to go ahead into that shape at any point.  Before long, it was time to start the official portion of the class, and with an introduction of myself to the group of about 15-17 students, off we went.

I have to say, I’m glad it was a  yin class, because the time in poses was good for me to stay on point and be sure of where I was going next.  There was also less to remember about sequencing, and much less to do in terms of adjustments.  But, I got to chat a little about yin (trying to be sure to maintain periods of silence during each pose), offer modifications for people throughout, and watch the process unfold.  It was great!

I don’t know how much impact this will have on my final vinyasa teach, but I think it will at least make me feel more confident that I can do it if I stay calm and just share yoga with the students.  And, that’s what teaching is all about, right?

Namaste,

L